In a Haze of Stormy Haze...

Song of the Day: 'Clocks', Coldplay

You know that feeling you get when you've just laid down in bed, your muscles have relaxed, you're wonderfully ensconced in your blankets, your pillow is just right, and it's like everything in the world now makes sense because it's time to go to bed? I've felt that way all day.

Minus the bed, blankets, pillow, and 'time to go to bed' bit.

ZERO ability to stay awake - in ALL FOUR CLASSES. That fuzzy warmth you get once you're wrapped up and your muscles are all jellyfied is certainly present - but unfortunately bittersweet because of the crippling lack of bed. And the actually being asleep part.

I've had a headache since about noon, and the only time it really went away was when I was super distracted because my friend was playing with my hair. Damn, that almost put me to sleep SO. BLOODY. FAST.

Man, even writing in all caps is taking it's toll.

The only reason I haven't gone to bed yet (besides the fact that it's only just after five) is because I am physically incapable of moving from this spot. I'm sitting in the design studio doing absolutely nothing save troll on the internet, and I can't bring myself to move in some way.

I mean, it wasn't a horrible day. It's not as if I accidentally slept through a midterm or missed something crucial from one of my classes (I don't think). We're finally doing computer drafting in drafting, so that'll be nice. No more late hours in the studio - just late nights on my computer, and I do that anyway. Stage management Rych played us an audio file of him calling a show, which was certainly interesting. It just gave me an icky headache and almost put me to sleep. Then on to Italian where I DID fall asleep, and then Shakespeare in which we watched a bit of Al Pacino's 'Merchant of Venice' (also with Joseph Fiennes, Jeremy Irons, Charlie Cox, Kris Marshall, and Mackenzie Crook, among others), which was nice.

I'm just feeling so lethargic. Ever since RENT ended I've had more time to do everything, but I haven't really been doing it. I mean, a few projects I've managed to stay on top of and get done a number of days in advance. But I've got a couple of big, important projects that are due at the end of the semester and I've done very little so far. Granted, I have at least a month to do them, but I'm essentially a professional procrastinator. I'm not sure I'll be able to do as well as I want to when I feel like this, which sucks because not only do I need to do super well because this determines whether or not I get into the BFA program, but I WANT to do well because I think I CAN do well and am kind of excited for the projects at all.

...Damn, that was a long sentence.

Anywhozlebees. I'll figure something out. I just need something to kickstart my drive. Which usually doesn't come until, at the EARLIEST, the week before the due date. Yaaaaaay....

'So if you ever feel neglected
and if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
hoping everything's not lost...' - 'Everything's Not Lost', Coldplay

These So-Called Vacations Will Soon Be My Death

Song of the Day: 'The Atlantic Reels', Brian McNeill

Has the world just gone to shit a lot faster in the past few years, or am I simply more aware of the shit that happens?

This isn't going to be a rant of 'the world we live in' - I'm not politically savvy enough for a conversation of that caliber.

I was just wondering about the state of the world today and if it's always been this active.

I mean, I can't see how it's NOT always been like this. Not everything develops at the same rate as technology. Man, wouldn't that be a scary world.

I simply find myself in a - shall we say - more international frame of mind at the moment. Probably due to the excessive amount of celtic music I'm listening to. TowhichI'mlistening.

Fun fact: I ALWAYS want to spell frame with a 'ph'. I don't even.

Anywhozlebees. Things have happened. As they are wont to do. But I don't really go out looking for these things. I don't stay particularly in tune with the news and goings-on of the world. Which isn't to say it doesn't interest me and it would probably be a good idea to become more aware of the global state of things. But I get my jollies in other ways, thanks.

Ever so very rarely, I'll click on the 'News' icon in my Safari toolbar, and the amount of articles it says it has in little parentheses usually exceeds 300. And I'm not talking about the Kim Kardashian Wedding types of news (which, ironically, I know a lot more about than the Real World). I mean things like the governmental shit that's going down in Greece, the attacks in Nigeria, and the 'Syrian Forces Kill 27' articles. I can't pretend to fully comprehend everything that I read, but some of this shit is scary.

Mayhaps that's why I don't, usually. Not only does it make me fully aware of the real world stuff that happens outside of my little sphere, but it reminds me that my little sphere is, in fact, oh so very little. Which isn't to say that I don't like being reminded that I'm not the centre of my and my friends' worlds - a jolt of reality is good for people. It's just so very daunting to think that so much in the world goes on and you're rarely aware of it all. Even more so that you can do very little about it. If you even want to.

The amount of news I come across without even trying also leads me to wonder how much parents hide from their children. Which isn't to say that kids of a certain age would even be interested in world politics. I mean, 9/11 was a big deal and I knew that and respected that when I found out - I just don't recall if I really understood why. On the other hand, technology has increased majestically even within the last few years, and my access to technology has as well. With as much time as I spend on the internet, it makes sense that I would come across some of the things that don't always get brought up over family dinner.

I dunno, really. Just random musings.

*The chorus* - 'Scraping the Barrel', Shooglenifty