I'm lost somewhere between thinking my friends are actively ignoring me because they don't care enough and they're just self-involved enough that they don't realize I'm flailing.
Or.
They've noticed and don't think it's their place to bring it up with me vs. they honestly have enough of their own shit to deal with they don't need my crap weighing them down too.
Or.
I'm being over dramatic and my life really isn't that hard vs. I don't have an efficient enough outlet for all the Ish I'm steadily avoiding and/or wallowing in and THAT is getting to me more than the legitimate problems/issues I at least think I have that aren't being addressed by me or anyone else.
.....Or some combination of all of the above?
Sigh.
I don't really know.
I waiver between caring and not caring.
...About myself.
Yeesh.
I waiver between caring and not caring.
...About myself.
Yeesh.
'You've gotta take it on your own from here
it's getting pathetic and I'm almost done here.' - 'Come Back Down', Greg Laswell
it's getting pathetic and I'm almost done here.' - 'Come Back Down', Greg Laswell
