When Colin Firth Says 'Abhorrence' in 'Pride and Prejudice'...

Song of the Day: 'Resistance', Muse

I hate that my friends drink.

I hate that they sometimes think they need alcohol to have a good time.

I hate that after a night of fun and camaraderie working a show I go back to my room and feel more alone than ever, because all of my friends are out getting drunk.

I hate that no one else won't not drink with me, and that no one else would choose me over drinking.

I hate that I can't have a good time with my friends drinking and me not drinking because I would inevitably be uncomfortable and worry the entire time.

I hate that I can't help but think they think less of me because I don't drink.

I hate that that's probably true.

I hate that it makes me feel like shit because I think they think less of me for sticking to my principles and morals.

I hate that the fact that I don't hate myself for not drinking isn't enough to make me feel better about any of this.

But I also hate that I judge them for drinking and judge them for judging me for not drinking.

And I hate that that makes me a hypocrite.

'Gonna hitch a ride
head for the other side
leave it all behind
never change my mind
gonna sail away
sun lights another day
freedom of my mind
carry me away for the last time...' - 'Hitch a Ride', Boston

I Can't Think of an Appropriate Title for This One, But I'll Capitalise All the Letters Anyways.

Song of the Day: 'Lusty Alaska Lady', GreySkiesBlue

It's hard to write a blog post about something that isn't happening directly to you but you're still mixed up in. When it's not your problem to solve, but you're still in it because your opinion has been asked and it would go against your better judgement to not try and help them.

All I want to do is complain about the problem, the fact that there is a problem, that I'm trying to help, and no one is taking my advice even though THEY brought me into it and THEY asked for my help.

But all that would lead to is me ranting about a problem that isn't mine, telling a one-sided story and my biased opinion of it, and how easy it would be to fix it if only they freaking did what I'm telling them to do.

So I sit and stop giving my opinion. They keep asking for it, but they won't listen. And then I feel stupid for having said anything at all and second guess my advice.

It's sound advice. I don't really have a lot of experience in the 'drama' department, regardless of it's familial, friend, or otherwise. But I am damn good at being objective. I'm good at seeing the other side, playing devil's advocate when necessary, and finding a logical and not too over-the-top way of handling a problem when necessary.

Sometimes I think it's because they like the drama. Honestly, I've never met people who collect THIS much melodrama in their lives as some of the friends I've got at school. And what's really annoying is when they complain about how much drama there is in the life. IF YOU WERE TO FUCKING DEAL WITH THE DRAMA INSTEAD OF REACTING ON INSTINCT AND EXACERBATING THE PROBLEM, YOU WOULD HAVE. LESS. DRAMA.

But then I remember that people are human. Sure, a little drama keeps you on your toes, spices things up, and makes for an interesting story once it's over and done with. But I don't think people like it, per say. Sometimes people enjoy inciting drama - it does make for a good spectator sport. But I honestly think that most drama comes from people not wanting to act like adults.

It's true. If you've a problem with someone, talk about it with them. Don't go talking about it behind their backs, complaining to friends and telling virtually everyone BUT them. That doesn't help. That makes it worse.

But, people are people, and directly talking to someone seems to be way too hard for the world. So we'll just keep gossiping until our ears fall off, and maybe that'll eventually lead to world peace.

'Say there's something better
you don't see it, you won't find it
say there's something better
you're behind it but you won't get it.' - 'Molasses', The Hush Sound