I think I sometimes surprise people.
Not all the time or anything - no one's THAT spontaneous - but just enough.
I feel like people sometimes think that it's strange how I can go from making a poop or fart joke one moment to praising the quality artwork of Jack Vettriano in the next. Things like those, which aren't related at all, shouldn't come out of my mouth with only seconds and carbon-dioxide to separate them.
But what people don't realize about me - or about anyone, really - is that I'm all of these things at once. I think and feel these things simultaneously. I can laugh myself silly from a good 'that's what she said' and still have pretentiously deep conversations about poetry.
My body isn't a very good medium for Me with a capital 'M'. The being, identity, soul that can appreciate Kurt Halsey, celtic reels, the smell of fresh baked cookies and an inside joke all within the same thought, the same breath. It's hard to encapsulate and try to keep it restrained at all, but when your only outlet is this primitive, rudimentary body, it can be heartbreakingly debilitating.
I think that's why I like tumblr so much. I follow all of these random-ass blogs that are all beautiful or funny or just fantastic to me and reblog things one after the other, a Quirky Turkey after a Star Wars comic after a pretty picture of trees after a favorited tattoo. I like all of these things pretty consistently, regardless of my current mood.
Though the other side of it is people change, too. Sure, I'll probably always have an emotional attachment to Harry Potter and always laugh at Calvin & Hobbes and always cry at particular A.A. Milne poems. But enough goes on and begins and ends in the world to allow a little leeway for people. We're allowed to change within because so much changes outside and beyond us. I guess all we can hope for is that we're consistent where it counts. Being consistently inconstant, perhaps.
I think if you find yourself spending time with people who no longer surprise you, you're in for a dull life. I don't mean by being spontaneous or random or batshit crazy - though that's certainly fun. I mean when someone can startle you into laughing even when making a joke you've heard and made yourself a thousand times. When a song you absolutely love comes on and you still love it as much as you ever did and maybe even hear or find something in it that you hadn't before. Even the bad stuff, to an extent. When someone can piss you off enough to cause you to make a change in your life, or at least try. When you lose someone who was so close to you that the memories stay on your surface for a while and make you think or feel about things differently, even if only for a little bit.
I've said it once, I'll say it again - people are multifaceted. The idea is true no matter how you word it, but I think I use the word 'multifaceted' because it's just so aesthetically pleasing. The most I've heard it used is in relation to diamonds or jewels in general, which in itself is a nice image. But also because of the 'multi' and 'face' and 'i' and the '-ed' suffix. It's plural, it's individual, it's personal and relatable. Just a good word all around to describe people.
'Hold on - hold on
wait! Maybe the answer's
looking for you!' - 'Hold On', Yes
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