It's amazing how easily I get lost in other worlds.
It's amazing how easily these other worlds affect me. The people, their problems and triumphs, growth, adventures, relationships. I spend a remarkable amount of time crying over things that don't even exist in reality, simply because of how they have affected or altered the stasis of some fictional character's life.
What the hell does that say about me?
Hell, I cry at commercials. A moving hallmark card, a sad 'ADOPT ME I'M LONELY' animal, and I'm gone. Not, you know, bawling, or anything - but I'm most definitely tearing up and it'll inevitably make me think.
That's my problem - I over-think. I overanalyze and overdo ALL the things, especially when they're not necessary. I have a hard enough time not forgetting life isn't always black and white, it doesn't help that there's so much fucking grey.
Sometimes I feel like I'm Frasier or Niles - EVERYTHING CAN BE EXPLAAAAIIIIIINED, THAT MEEEEEAAAAAANS SOMETHIIIIIIIING.
Not always necessary. Things don't have to mean... things. More than what they are. Just because there's an obvious meaning of obviousness doesn't mean that it's too simple and there has to be something deeper.
THINGS. MEANING. MEANING THINGS. ICANHASTHESAURUS.
Oy. Talk about getting caught up in another world.
Why do I do that? Why am I so discontent with the things in my own life that I look for entertainment and things about which I can emote elsewhere? Or maybe I'm looking for an escape from the things in my own life? Which would be impressive, seeing as there isn't much in my life. No guy, no job, no activity, no change.
But really, I know that's not true. I needed to write it out just so I could contradict myself. I have a fantastic family, wonderful friends, ample opportunity for entertainment from the television shows I watch and the books I read. In a few days, I'll be starting rehearsal for Beauty and the Beast which will be a fantastic experience. I'll get to hang out with people my own age as well as boss people around who are younger than me - what's not to like! Then when school starts again I'll have interesting classes, a job so I can has le monies and thus go out and DO things once in a while with my friends - hell, I'll get to see all my school friends who I haven't really talked to since May!
Piffle. There I go again. EVERYTHING MEEEAAAAAANS SOMETHING. Can't I just enjoy a damn show?
.....I can't tell if I'm arguing with myself or not.
Just to be safe, I shan't analyze the fact that the first thing I list in the 'I'm unhappy' liturgy is the lack of male companionship.
At least not here.
'I am cold, unfeeling and odd
and you should thank God
that we are on different sides of the state -
hope you're okay...' - 'Odd', Julia Nunes
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